hmm.... went back this time seriously makes it harder for me to fight the desire to not want to come back here... its not like i hate this city.... i just feel lonely here.... missing everyone back there....
lots of problems haven't been solve... lots of things have to be thought about through and through again...
where is my future lies?
came back with an empty room and a padlock which i lost my key to settle with... my BB cream got thrown away... seriously... kastam... haiz... just because of that our flight was delayed for an hour plus.... what a day.... tired and all... wish there is someone beside me.... but then i tell myself this time... i have to walk on alone.... not to find someone out of loneliness... not to depend and rely completely on someone just because i thought i can't do anything.... hope u understand... i wanna try standing on my feet for once.... i relied on u too much... and thanks for letting me to anyway.... i miss u.... i am not sure about my decision whether it is right or wrong... but i figured we both need time....
ahh.... I WANNA GO HOME!
when i was on the plane... i was thinking... yea... never realised how blessed i was to have a home to go to everyday last time.... to never really appreciate it and took it for granted.... and if i could turn back time... there are many things that i wanna change... but then again... if decision changes and so there are changes to be made... i am not sure if i am really ready for it.... things would be totally upside down.... what a life.....
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