matrioshka market...

today went to matrioshka market with kelly, see toh, wye kitt...
its very fun to shop today...
lots of stuff to see...
quite expensive though...
they said it will be much cheaper on wed...
T.T i missed the day....
oh well... i bought a lot of souvenirs... that makes me quite happy though...
nt much but at least i bought sth ^^
going to buy more again next year o...
hehe... thx wye kitt and kelly

home...

so nostalgic to hear this song...
but i seriously wanna go home....
hehe...

outing today...

today i went to вднx with raymond and kathrine they all...
its very fun... and somehow... i forgot hw to cycle alr......
T.T.... i feel so stupid out of sudden...
oh my, oh my...
wasted most of raymond's precious time.... >.<
after that we went to babylon... to shop... and eat dinner...
initially we plan to go back and eat with chai...
but somehow we are way too late already... since its like that then we eat in babylon...
texas chicken... nt bad...
but then we eat quite late lo... until the whole mall closing d... haha...
then saw wye kit and kelly... so sweet... then i start missing him again...
haiz.... i wonder if he will still bring me to this park again ka....
i wanna hav some fun and happy memories with him...
but somehow he is way too lazy to go out...
and way to bz to choi me....
i duno what to do la...
sometimes he just put me aside or ask someone to take care of me...
i wonder... am i still consider as his gf ka?
at first when we start dating... its so sweet... and then everything start turning so cold...
he dun choi me most of the time... only with the psp in hands....
he will keep playing games without bothering me anymore...
what to do.... haizzzzzzzzz.

爱情

爱情的魔力真的是好奇妙。。。

她可以将一个普通的女孩摇身一变乘气质不凡的女人。。。

她可以将一个人的坏脾气收敛。。。

看着身边的女孩得到的仅是一个心上人的拥抱却可以让她开心一整天。。。

看不见心上人就忧愁。。。。

爱，真的可以改变一个人。。。。

i miss u so badly nw...

T.T
haiz.... today my bf went back to malaysia with two of his batchmates already...
found out that... we hav been too comfortable with each other..
nw without him... i feel so empty... i lose directions and i dont knw what to do...
i feel like crying like an abandoned kid....
thats all i feel like doing whenever i am walking down the path to his room...
realising that he was nt there anymore... haiz... i wanna go back with him so badly...
i feel so lonely here... dont knw why....
dear.... i miss u T^T

random...

was reading some friends' blogs as my boyfriend was busy packing here and >< i am waiting for my DINNER... T.T
saw sth interesting... i forgot how long i used to be positive for things for that short moment in my life...
nw i thought of him... i knew that some people might having some "traditional" thoughts in mind...
thinking that "yer, this girl got bf d yet she still thinking and missing someother guy"....
what i can say is... i am loyal enough to my bf if u wanna say... i am to each and everyone of my ex...
no more no less... though i can not admit that he was special to me...
for my closest friends i think u will knw that who is the one that i am talking abt...
during my most depressed time... he is the only one who could pull me back up on my feet...
he was the only one that will remain special for me no matter what happens...
i LOVED him... so its a pass tense... nt to say i dun love him anymore...
my love for him is just a love for a special friend... thats all...
wonder how is he doing right nw? well... nobody can ever replace him... kinda nostalgic ><

while reading on still on their blog... i noticed that they are seriously positive abt their relationship and they love each other very much... sometimes i've been wondering... is there a forever?
i hope that there is... was trying hard to maintain but somethings like relationship... among two diff kind of ppl.. of course... there will be arguments.... haiz... hopefully that i will get the positiveness back soon...
looking at my bf nw... i just feel like... haizzzzzzzzzzzz................... ^^

“孝”

今天在 facebook 看了一个短片。。。
看着看着， 鼻头开始酸了。。。
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZhJqhXpEio&feature=share
人啊， 只顾自己的感受却忽略了别人的感受。。。
尤其是养育自己的父母。。。
“孝”， 是我们这些自私的人类所容易忘记的字。。。
纵使身受教育也未能执行所被授予的知识。。。。
我们都知道“孝”是什么， 但是我们也该自问有否尽过孝道。。。。

cell group

today was having cell group with yunn min..
oh my god... that girl super "siao" today...
lolz.... very hyper... dont know what's with her ^^
but its fun to be with her...
like isaac said "yunn min 是个宝"......
i am lucky to have known her....
today topic was about overcoming our shame....
Xandria keep on with her "tadpole"
hehe... thats quite lots of fun....
we played games today suggested by angie.. lolz..
that was so fun~ i laughed so hard until my stomachache...
haha...
thanks God for showing me ways when i am down and sad...
thanks God for showing me that there is always ways if i am willing to take one more steps to solve the problem...
thanks God for blessing me with such good peoples...

missing my hubbie, sisters and the pet

hubbie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
did u cheat on us?
did u add on another wife?
u promise that i am the last wife u will ever take o...
try cheating and hav affair with other women n see...
i tell u i very ganas one o.... hehe... *warning alarm on*
elise!!!!! u r here.... =p nt seeing u much though... so miss u still.... say hi to matt for me ^^
khai xian... hw r u? in malaysia? got meet hubbie ma? did she cheat on us?
if she did... make sure to shoot her well XD
and lastly... KOALA... *blinking* i miss u~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
muacks.... its spring... lets have fun and enjoy, хорошо?

hunger for food

mummy~~~~~
i miss ur tomyam!!!!! and "鱼头米线”yu tao mai。。。。
daddy~~~~~~~
i miss every food u ever cooked =p
theodore.... though u din cook much... but u always bring me out n eat good food....
william yap... u only eat... GO LEARN HOW TO COOK!!!!
metau!!!! i miss ur asam laksa, nam chuk, geng som, tom som, and ur vege T^T
ah yi~~~ u knw best where got good food =)
taigu... cook ban mi for me!!!!!
ah po!!! i wan soup > <
ah babe... i miss u!!!!
and all my friends in malaysia... miss u guys too =)
mummy and daddy...
i have been taking care well enough for myself...
do not worry... i do had my breakfast every morning...
and i din starve myself...
at least i gain weight =p
ah po... u knw hw to use ur phone already?
taigu, moi gu gu, jiayang.... miss u sooooo much....
kawai, sze yuin, bro, wuz, laikuan, hui voon, karmun, zheng xian...... miss u guys super lot u knw!!!!!!
u guys are my best friends forever.... best among best o!!!!

春之魔法。。。

夜已深。。。
静谧的夜幕，皎洁的圆月看似平静但却扰乱了我的思绪。。。
月圆人团圆嘛。。。
看着那么大的圆月，繁星的夜幕难免觉得有点孤清。。。
繁星小巧看似遥远，月亮大而明亮好像离这儿很近却离繁星好远。。。
好想家呀。。。
枯萎的树因冬天刚过而开始慢慢被注入了春天的生命力。。。
一片片的树叶开始环绕着树枝。。。
一朵朵的鲜花开始艳丽的舞姿。。。
小鸟都开始了它们的春天交响曲。。。
这是春天的魔法呀。。。
被冬天冻结的心能因为春天而回复生命力吗？

happy valentines...

happy "belated" valentines...
lolz... my dear went through all the troubles to annoyed me so that i will be surprised when i received the "real" valentines present...
haha... he keep mentioning "i went through the snow storm to buy u bla bla bla... nah dear... this is ur valentines present..."... when i show him my sulking face...
he laughed and said "this is really ur valentine present... aiyo... sad already ar?"
lolz... these conversation repeated for the whole night...
haha...
but on the morning of valentines day...
i accepted my real valentines present...
was very touched...

my "bb"

this is the handmade truffles made by my dear

~i love u~

today~

aiks... left one more zachut to clear...
after that holiday starts!!!!!!

quote of the day

ahh~ tired!

>.<
my eye feel so tired after facing the html code the whole day today~
zi zi help me out with my blog earlier on but then after that i saw another very cute skin~
=3
i cant ask her to just help me out again just because i randomly saw a better one, isnt it?
haiz... have to go start a war with the html...
and my dear dear was sitting beside me studying...
he saw me fighting there so seriously then he come & kacau...
=S
he was laughing at me....
looking at my blurr face...
he said i messed up the codes...
and somehow he seems very geng like that...
tell me to do this and that with the html codes...
oh my god.... and i just finish with it..... hoo~
i give up d....
thought could make it better... somehow...
just like dear dear said....
i messed up the codes... and its so hard for me just to correct it!
Zi~~~~~
i still hate html... very very very very very super duper much~~~~~~~~~



quote of the day~

Thanks to dear KOALA~

special thanks to her for helping me editing my blog....

lov3 her super much... lolz...

ahh~ i am dumb with the html code & stuff... 

well ya, haha... i love u, zi~~~~~~~~~~ <3

离家的第109天

时间过得真快。。。。

转眼间已是2011 了。。。。

好想家呀～

离家已有109天了。。。

没想到自己竟可以独自在俄罗斯这个异地生活了那么久。。。。

还记得出发的那一天， 爸爸的眼泪夺眶而出。。。。

心里想着他一定是担心着我， 舍不得我。。。。

但是为了不辜负他对我的期望， 我也只能忍着泪水，朝这儿前进。。。。

要到这个地方的路程很远。。。。。。

当飞机朝俄国起飞的当儿，我在想。。。 家， 离我越来越远了。。。。

脑海中尽浮现家的画面。。。。。。

在想。。。 当我下一次回家时， 会否有改变。。。。

好多好多的疑问一直缠绕着我的思绪。。。。。。

我一直都相信未来是靠自己的毅力而创造的。。。。

我也不甘让自己的生活平平无趣。。。

也不想做个驻米大虫。。。。

我只想靠自己的双手为自己带来更好的明天。。。。

爸， 妈， 我会一直努力。。。

请别担心。。。 我会好好照顾自己的。。。。

random~

miss my family so much...

been stucked in the hostel for one week holiday...

cause my dear dear is having his "OPEHA"...

cant be helped then... ><

be his cooking maid now... lolz... cheering and praying hard for him so that he could get good results...

miss my parents and family as usual...

what can i do?

hope that i can finish my second sem successfully and go back early to meet them...

especially ha babe...

wonder will he still remember me or not...

if he dont then i will be very sad... ><

started my guitar lessons here with yunn min...

oh my... she is so cute and pretty... she is a strong girl...

haha...

hmm... wonder if life here made me "lembik" d...

i am not that "strong" anymore...

my dear dear said i should be more independent...

wonder what will he think when he saw me last time but not now...

haha...

the girl who is exclusively stubborn and independent...

who is so fierce...

and strong...

being a leader last time made me a girl like that...

but ever since i am here...

doing nothing...

i turn soft...

oh my god... thats not good... lolz...

i feel so weak now...

and i wonder why....

cant join paramed cause dear dear is the head...

others will said a lot of things behind our back...

since i chose him i have to give up being a member then...

but i will never give up being a first aider...

cause once a first aider always a first aider...

nt gonna let my knowledge gone wasted like that... =p

wanna play piano so badly...

was considering whether i should go back and work during summer...

to earn money for buying a keyboard and bring here... but will it be a hectic case then?

was wondering that nw...

wanna buy a guitar also...

hmm

thinking thinking thinking........