today~

aiks... left one more zachut to clear...
after that holiday starts!!!!!!

quote of the day

ahh~ tired!

>.<
my eye feel so tired after facing the html code the whole day today~
zi zi help me out with my blog earlier on but then after that i saw another very cute skin~
=3
i cant ask her to just help me out again just because i randomly saw a better one, isnt it?
haiz... have to go start a war with the html...
and my dear dear was sitting beside me studying...
he saw me fighting there so seriously then he come & kacau...
=S
he was laughing at me....
looking at my blurr face...
he said i messed up the codes...
and somehow he seems very geng like that...
tell me to do this and that with the html codes...
oh my god.... and i just finish with it..... hoo~
i give up d....
thought could make it better... somehow...
just like dear dear said....
i messed up the codes... and its so hard for me just to correct it!
Zi~~~~~
i still hate html... very very very very very super duper much~~~~~~~~~



quote of the day~

Thanks to dear KOALA~

special thanks to her for helping me editing my blog....

lov3 her super much... lolz...

ahh~ i am dumb with the html code & stuff... 

well ya, haha... i love u, zi~~~~~~~~~~ <3

离家的第109天

时间过得真快。。。。

转眼间已是2011 了。。。。

好想家呀～

离家已有109天了。。。

没想到自己竟可以独自在俄罗斯这个异地生活了那么久。。。。

还记得出发的那一天， 爸爸的眼泪夺眶而出。。。。

心里想着他一定是担心着我， 舍不得我。。。。

但是为了不辜负他对我的期望， 我也只能忍着泪水，朝这儿前进。。。。

要到这个地方的路程很远。。。。。。

当飞机朝俄国起飞的当儿，我在想。。。 家， 离我越来越远了。。。。

脑海中尽浮现家的画面。。。。。。

在想。。。 当我下一次回家时， 会否有改变。。。。

好多好多的疑问一直缠绕着我的思绪。。。。。。

我一直都相信未来是靠自己的毅力而创造的。。。。

我也不甘让自己的生活平平无趣。。。

也不想做个驻米大虫。。。。

我只想靠自己的双手为自己带来更好的明天。。。。

爸， 妈， 我会一直努力。。。

请别担心。。。 我会好好照顾自己的。。。。

random~

miss my family so much...

been stucked in the hostel for one week holiday...

cause my dear dear is having his "OPEHA"...

cant be helped then... ><

be his cooking maid now... lolz... cheering and praying hard for him so that he could get good results...

miss my parents and family as usual...

what can i do?

hope that i can finish my second sem successfully and go back early to meet them...

especially ha babe...

wonder will he still remember me or not...

if he dont then i will be very sad... ><

started my guitar lessons here with yunn min...

oh my... she is so cute and pretty... she is a strong girl...

haha...

hmm... wonder if life here made me "lembik" d...

i am not that "strong" anymore...

my dear dear said i should be more independent...

wonder what will he think when he saw me last time but not now...

haha...

the girl who is exclusively stubborn and independent...

who is so fierce...

and strong...

being a leader last time made me a girl like that...

but ever since i am here...

doing nothing...

i turn soft...

oh my god... thats not good... lolz...

i feel so weak now...

and i wonder why....

cant join paramed cause dear dear is the head...

others will said a lot of things behind our back...

since i chose him i have to give up being a member then...

but i will never give up being a first aider...

cause once a first aider always a first aider...

nt gonna let my knowledge gone wasted like that... =p

wanna play piano so badly...

was considering whether i should go back and work during summer...

to earn money for buying a keyboard and bring here... but will it be a hectic case then?

was wondering that nw...

wanna buy a guitar also...

hmm

thinking thinking thinking........

love u....

went to A2 cell group yesterday...

they are talking abt love...

what is love...

love can be in many form....

it could be an eternal memory...

lolz... ok... after that went to Ashan City with Gor Gor (shin)

then bought some material for the cake and dinner...

planned to make cheese baked rice for him...

but end up... i cant find an oven for that...

even for the cake i have to borrow from Kathrine...

thanks Kathrine...

Banana Chocolate Cake...

oh my baby really pandai order ar...

baked it...

successfully... just a bit ugly... and baby said should add more banana...

well... the cake was distributed everywhere... then i found out its actually not enough...

i left out lots of ppl....

oh my god... i left out chai's portion.. wanna give mine to him...

but end up gone d... T.T

sad..

and i din even get to taste my own hand baked cake...

but dear dear said its nice...

should i believe him or is he flattering me?

lolz... i shall ask the others later....

by the way, he describe the cake as crunchy at the top and moist at the centre with a rich chocolate taste... and nice banana... SWT...

lolz... k... i guess its a success...

hoof... chocolate cake is the most "ma fan" cake to make...

lolz... but the end product is nice~

thanks for those who help me out yesterday... love u guys... muacks....

really and seriously thanks a lot....

that saved my life... oops... din get to take a pic of it... but nvm la

to my family....

to my dearest family :

its been more than 2 months since i reached here already...

and i really do miss u all so much...

i had homesick since the very first day i reached here...

cant stop crying...

these cause some misunderstanding amongst my seniors...

most of them thought that i was rude and arrogant because i didnt talk much...

and i sincerely apologize if they do think that way...

and i was too lazy to clear that misunderstanding off...

mummy... i miss you so much... the day i went to the park during autumn...

i saw a mother holding her daughter's hand...

it reminds me more of you and tears started dropping...

daddy... every sms from you makes me miss you even badly...

i know that you guys love me very much.... and of course i love you guys too...

thanks for raising me up for these 19 years....

i am proud to be your daughter, daddy and mummy...

i love you guys...

i miss ha babe a lot....

wonder if he missed me too....

and theodore... though she always "cari gaduh"

but still she is my adorable sister...

i miss her very much too..

and my brother... i hope that he did well in his studies...

dear parent, please be patient with them as they are not so tough when dealing with problems...

especially the up and down in lifes...

they are still weak to walk on their own feet...

i hope that you guys can give them more guidance, caring and love...

i hope that you guys can do my part for me also...

as i failed to do as a sister since i am not by their side...

and dear sister and brother, i am sorry that for your following birthdays...

for 6 years... approximately... i wont be able to celebrate with you guys...

i hope that you guys do understand and i am sorry that i wont be able to stay by your side when you guys need me most...

as i am far away from home...

be sure that you guys toughen yourself up...

when you fall down, make sure that you stand back up...

dont make daddy and mummy worry....

please do take care of daddy and mummy in my place too as they are getting old...

they need your attention too...

please dont ignore their advice and listen to them whenever they need you to...

please dont make them worry and do be a good girl and good boy....

and at last....

dear family, i will be back whenever i can...

i promise that i will try my best here..

i know that i am lazy but i will try my best to force myself to study hard...

at least, i promise that i will graduate and make you guys proud of me...

thank you my dear family for always being there by my side...

i love you~